This is my reality

I was slightly unsettled the other day.  I was sat at work, and all of a sudden I shuddered as a thought passed through my head in a moment.

"This is my reality".  I was sat behind double-glazing, on a high-chair, waiting for customers to walk in.  My only recollections of the past week were sleeping, sitting on the bus, and being at work.  My daily routine, my life, has now become this ongoing drudgery that everyone complains about.

"So what?" you might think.  "It's the same for everyone".  No.  It wasn't always this way for me.  There was a time when I enjoyed my job.  It wasn't always easy, but it was enjoyable.  I learned something new everyday.  I met lots of new people...I met lots of nice people who didn't cause me problems, or try to con me out of money, or become abusive towards me.

And so as I sat there I realised that I am now settling into a day-to-day pattern that may repeat for many years.  As I mentioned in a previous blog, my ambitions, my dreams, and my ideals of my life to come were set a bit too high, and this 'moment' of which I write was the latest in the process of realising that life isn't that easy, or well paid, or enjoyable.

We are all guilty of it.  Thinking we are more than we are.  Thinking we should have more than we do.  We should all have dreams and aspirations, of course.  But our sense of reality, and our understanding of our station in life, and the limits of our abilities (and bank balances) needs to be grounded in that daily routine.

Just think what the world would be like if we stopped thinking "I want", and started thinking "I have".